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But always touching. My legs, my vulva, my mouth. Once he put his dick in my mouth as I was waking up and pet my hair and talked soothingly to calm me down so I wouldn't panic.
What a nice assault, no?
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We went to the Rodin Museum in Philly and met up with a friend of his, Nancy Lebovitz. We also saw the Barnes Foundation in Philly. He was fun to talk about art with!
In fact, he was fun to talk about anything with, so long as you were ok with him forgetting it 5min later.
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I even called him "transhumanist Byron" and wrote poetry about him. There are posts years back on my Tumblr about him -- let me show you.
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More here, even.
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But you guys wanted to know about my abuse at his hands.
Well, for one thing, he told me he loved me because I was "young at heart", broke up with me a week after for the "Isis" at Burning Man, and then told his pals I was "a 5yo in a hot 20yo's body".
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This was not the first instance. Bear with me, this takes a little explaining.
So part of emotional abuse is putting down your partner in public, right? Well, Michael loves Mage: the Ascension. Practically worships it.
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He assigns everyone a mage tag. Everyone he likes that is. Everyone, but me, even while we were dating.
"You're a sleeper -- you don't really get it. Your world is too small."
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Dumb without context, yes?
Go look into Mage: the Ascension. Go on. I'll wait.
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If you don't know anything about MtA (and believe me, the people I was spending time with with him did), I'll give you the translation.
"You are pretty, but you have no agency of your own. You are a second-class citizen and cannot affect your environment. Bask in my glow."
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Problem is, I am not super good at basking. So this resulted in the breakup, where he immediately chose to discredit me to anyone who would listen.
I thought I was friends enough with his friends to get them on my side. Stupid.
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Michael also had this unnerving habit of, when we were sleeping in the same bed, touching me as I was falling asleep or waking up. Not asking, and never enough to trigger my flight/fight/freeze reflex (although in retrospect it might have been freeze).
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The weird thing was, he would complain that no one ever engaged in just foreplay, or "playful sexual touching" as he called it. I said a couple of times I'd be willing to do so if he was into it.
But it was never when I was in a state to consent.
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Michael did not believe I could affect my environment. He told people in public that I had no capability to affect my environment -- I was a Sleeper, no matter how much I protested. I was his plaything. A plaything he liked, but a a plaything.
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I DID NOT CONSENT TO BEING HIS FUCKING PLAYTHING.
Something to know about me: I was physically and emotionally abused as a child as well. Even consensual objectification dynamics freak me out. I did not consent to be Michael Vassar's toy -- but I was anyway.
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I was 19 when we started dating. I was 20 when he broke up with me on my birthday, for a woman who claimed that he was John Galt incarnated from the high umbra to lead humanity to Ascension.
Tbh I'm not even bitter, it's just wild.
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I should be clear, I'm not bitter now.
BUT BOY OH BOY WAS I BITTER BACK THEN.
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Michael had gotten his hooks into me. I thought I was the Caroline Lamb to his Lord Byron, I thought I could win him back, that if he saw how Awakened I was, he would want me. After all, he wanted me when I was a Sleeper, right?
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Surprise. It wasn't me. Michael wanted to sleep with a hot 19-year-old, then decided to keep her on a string instead of being honest with her because more of that hot half-awake pussy woo yeah.
Also "five year old in a hot twenty year old's body". After the breakup. Jesus.
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*Angela Lansbury voice*
But there was worse yet to come, poor thingπΆ pic.twitter.com/twSMoC8vkG
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Ok I was going to post more lyrics from Sweeney Tood, but it's not super helpful.
Now we're going to talk about Andrew Rettek. Buckle in your fucking seatbelts, we're gonna talk about the most gorgeous abuser on the planet.
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